PLANS ALWAYS THWARTED

yeagg santa didn't visit bc he was crashing out. i finally reached dad status, i can take naps with random vids with loud ass audio of a dude screaming at fnaf characters playing in the background. uhhhhhh finished watching sao first arc want to kill myself now? im back to my incel neet era we ball so hard. cooked up the fireplace, from what i remember you don't have one so it was slightly sad ! hop you're doing some bonfire stuff or sth at least. i really abandoned everyone and i feel kinda sad but i do feel like i finally am recharging somewhat, i feel way more peaceful. christmas day however was absolute buns, the concern at your absence became lowk terror at the notion of you possibly doing some shit you Shouldn't be Doing. i'm at my limit lowk vro. when i think about you it's always positive but when i think about how you think or act irl bro i'm genuinely so doomer pilled. anyway it was prob just that one day bc i was crashing out lowk serious and then the next day i woke up pretty chill again. peak news yo ZEN was GAMING again vro ..... placed right into silver 1 i kinda crode. did you unsave my playlists .... 🚬 ultimately i am actually really afraid of you hating me despite everything. watched half of dubbed morbius with my mom lmaoo honestly i'm a media enjoyer it really wasn't as bad as everyone said. last time i watched it years ago on that brba bcs dc serv with everyone screaming on top of it it was chaos. round1 got dandadan and they're advertising it a lot so it's gotta be big? also crashout going well enough, i'm about to make a short game lol. anyways hope you're home, if you are today's game on epic is peak i think you'd really like it :P

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