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some mf named "his treat", literally said ":skull:" in the chat and is still married i am crashing out this is so unfair bro what the fuck ! these people can be edaters at best how are they ending up married !! anw im b2

i had a dream where me you and guitar guy were in some hotel room with this nice balcony with a nice view and brooo i lowkey do want to live like that holy shit. watched another dogshit movie i can't believe how hyped i was for the first half and then it fell off so horribly this is just like playing clinical trials. tho it did made me think how i was accused of possibility of cheating when I've been living every day on edge for someone who doesn't even gaf about me fuck my stupid simp chud life ❌ idek if i should bother with this blog anymore bc you don't need it and i don't have anything to say anyway. miku leaves the fort today rip! also i only got to eat half a portion of cereal today and the workout app i downloaded turns out to be subscription based maybe i wither away today. i think i'm finally genuinely depressed i don't even want to gamble or do any other brainrot it's just kinda over

either this is an insane cope or i'm losing my mind but i was thinking about how sweet you are 👃 if i was any more hopeless i would have nearly expected you to find a way to come see me. froze my ass off but it was so quiet outside, the least cars I've ever seen and heard ever. lowkey felt like a fatass with how my footsteps were echoing. the only faint sounds of fireworks came from somewhere back in your direction. they're cooking something up at the spotty, got sand and shit in there, golly gee. suspicious lack of severe crashout today, at least compared to last year's suicide considerations lol. missed out on talking to both of my riot buddies oughh nobody likes me fr sigh! my friend went to a party and got even TWO new year's kisses so i am beat on that part, my 2025 bingo is insanely empty lmfao. also btw I've been really into poker like the absolute chud i am. also got really soft pants hmm if only there was someone to test them or something 👃 other than...

played anomaly game and dude it's so scary even if i was multitasking it threw me off so bad ! saw zen going 7-6 at midnight on a random ass day in his silver 3 lobby that was majestic. i actually have a friend on valo and they are really nice to me, i had to open up slightly about how bad i'm doing and broooo my brain just craves to believe there's someone that actually genuinely cares about me without being fake. almost became a puddle there brah ToT on the other hand we are transitioning into more goated valorant gameplay. i alrd started telling people to go die i think i am on the right track! glad to hear from you, conflicting feelings like always ofc but i am happy. i'm glad to see hints of the you that i knew. i need you to understand there was never no unwritten clause of silence, we just genuinely thought you were in danger and unable to communicate - or at least i did because nobody bothered to tell me about getting even the slightest sign of life from your si...

yeagg santa didn't visit bc he was crashing out. i finally reached dad status, i can take naps with random vids with loud ass audio of a dude screaming at fnaf characters playing in the background. uhhhhhh finished watching sao first arc want to kill myself now? im back to my incel neet era we ball so hard. cooked up the fireplace, from what i remember you don't have one so it was slightly sad ! hop you're doing some bonfire stuff or sth at least. i really abandoned everyone and i feel kinda sad but i do feel like i finally am recharging somewhat, i feel way more peaceful. christmas day however was absolute buns, the concern at your absence became lowk terror at the notion of you possibly doing some shit you Shouldn't be Doing. i'm at my limit lowk vro. when i think about you it's always positive but when i think about how you think or act irl bro i'm genuinely so doomer pilled. anyway it was prob just that one day bc i was crashing out lowk serious and then...

 inmportant wuestion if santa was to visit you how would that happen theoretically. thanx lmk