is this hype moments

 woke up and looked at tge clock and it said 6 and i genuinely thought i slept for 15 hours since 3 pm and was still tired i thought i was genuinely close to dying. but it was 6 pm and we got Back to Work. drew a comic need to goonsmaxx more. i don't think i mentioned it but ringtones and phones buzzing are actually pretty triggering to me because it reminds me of how stressed i was being on guard 24/7 waiting from news from you, but when the same ringtone as mine played multiple times in class i actually barely reacted, healing maxxing. genuinely thought about getting just a small message with good news from you and still felt an insane wave of anxiety this whole situation fucked me up so bad bruh that's embarrassing. anw i did not sleep at all on Thursday night. and maybe it was the air at 11 am or being outside or the absolute banger dnb music in my ears but i felt so good about a decision i made that you wouldn't like. i genuinely felt like it was spring break in high school and that i finally had my life back. i felt genuinely peaceful for the first time since you left, so all i can do is trust this is the right thing. i just wish you could feel the same lol. i went out to get something printed out. iiiiiii need to start doing things asap i will get to everything i abandoned including you gyattebayo. i feel like i have so much clarity and everyone trusts me and i know what to do and i can do everything and help everyone this is w pilled. my health though oughh my health are you joking. i have learned new rizz tactics thats my alpha aducation. i actually want the ora onetap vandal skin i cant lie it's really nice. was outside at 11 am for the second day in a row for a failed attempt at id acquisition. i actually hate the smell of this acidic ass rain but let me tell you vro when you want to live even that stuff makes you happy. sigh it would be nice if you felt that too. it's not yet time to do anything i Think and you're doing comparably better than everyone else so i won't cause any waves in your life yet, but i will be coming back for you heh, i need to consult my envoys first and i seem to have lost more friends over not talking to them again. saw a dandadan video where okarun said he finally made friends with aliens and it was a bunch of Mexicans and they played a mariachi version of the opening hell yeah jiggy. you should heavily consider miss ayase cosplay i definitely have no ulterior motives with this suggestion !. . erm i'll spare you the details this time but the whole sunday i had this lowkey manic episode many a thought has entered my head i am insane and delusional but i am so happy big things may await me yet. narcissistic disorders might have an increased dementia risk be aware. can you tie me to the table in your kitchen and not feed me so i can die sooner also yall can kick me when you walk by. i also feel like throwing up basically non stop and i have insomnia i think. ishowspeed set a world record for some sprint he be showing speed. my brother actually invited me to watch fnaf i don't understand why life so beautiful i wish you could watch it too josh Hutcherson Brittany broski royal court who will you be farting on next! im always getting bombarded by snoopy and miniso notifications. also kinda irrelevant but i found merch of my peak for like five fucking dolla i would buy it all out if i had any money siiigh. either way have i told you of the time i read through every single tweet tony Dalton ever made my stalking skills are peccable. also idk if i told you but ur mom deleted at least one of the messages she sent me vro actually ragebaiting i keep thinking whether you even knew what was happening while you were gone brah. need to have more faith in goonaruto rizzumaki gyattebayo. bad things maybe still happening? i am too delusional to care im so lightheaded myy heart so beating. my isolation echo chamber working well