how is it new years already guuhhh

played anomaly game and dude it's so scary even if i was multitasking it threw me off so bad ! saw zen going 7-6 at midnight on a random ass day in his silver 3 lobby that was majestic. i actually have a friend on valo and they are really nice to me, i had to open up slightly about how bad i'm doing and broooo my brain just craves to believe there's someone that actually genuinely cares about me without being fake. almost became a puddle there brah ToT on the other hand we are transitioning into more goated valorant gameplay. i alrd started telling people to go die i think i am on the right track!

glad to hear from you, conflicting feelings like always ofc but i am happy. i'm glad to see hints of the you that i knew. i need you to understand there was never no unwritten clause of silence, we just genuinely thought you were in danger and unable to communicate - or at least i did because nobody bothered to tell me about getting even the slightest sign of life from your side. so everyone's lives moved on except for me, zamn ! that's pathetic, hope i die soon. i know you don't really care about me, you gave me plenty of time to make sure of that. you don't have to worry about me tho, i have been cursed with immortality so i shall stay for a while longer. i also still have your gifts so i need to survive until you get them. hope you got the cup btw, i haven't heard from anyone so i wouldn't know. on the other hand, everything you needed to know about me was already here, i'm not sure why you needed someone else to repeat the same thing to believe it. do you think i'm lying or exaggerating? sigh sigh. anyways tell everyone happy holidays from me, i guess i won't be coming back for a while longer then. and also ask T about those 4 games if you haven't already. i will be alone for 2 more days prob wowza. mom found those sparklers from that outing to the park, so i will at least have to go outside tonight. have a happy new year :P !!

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