i maybe sick sighhh i like backrooms

 plenty of time 11th through march is pondering time still everything so chill world keeps spinning i keep suffering who gaf. keep getting throwbacks of random ass snaps about my horrible ass mental health and everything we been suffering since time immemorial ig. my dreams so ass, in one i had a split second yaoi cameo where zen was pushing luv on the swing i think and then i went to some "dating" event and turned the people there down and instead spent the entire dream talking about you lmfao and then i stayed in bed for three fucking hours bc i couldn't fall back asleep. also something scary might happen this weekend but maybe it will be good and nice ya .. also we're prob gonna move so keep that in mind too ig they keep raising our rent. either way at the very least you should be okay so ig i don't have to worry. me and my mama gonna queen out to RuPaul bangers im actually kinda happy and joyfilled world is beautiful ! anw 10th was the first day in ages that i felt alright and nothing big bad happened (except for pretty severe heart/lung pain that left me gasping for air the whole day heh) i spent basically all my waking hours watching and reading drag queen stuff and history and dedicatedly ignoring studying for my very difficult test also ur name was trending on twitter for basically no reason sigh thanx. only bad thing might be harbor rework bc let me tell you wtf they did to bro is evil why would they nerf harbor. funny how this is such a big deal tho that they're straight up getting a separate patch just for him lmao. on the other hand if my team gaslights me into playing smokes again i can play harbor we win big? anw keep looking for answers in the bible and getting jack, tried tarot cards as a secondary source and still nothing, but then did a three card spread and it was so accurate i nearly shat my pants idk if i like what it's saying lol. either you trust nothing because everything contradicts each other or you only trust one random source that you yourself pick out meaning ur already biased n also exponentially increase your chances of picking wrong if there indeed is a right choice. my peak needy streamer overload is on sale what do we think chat idk if i would want my brother to get to it ngl .. um got a humongous update too ur missing out on a ton of free stuff actually lock in. this religious shit taking up too much of my time so i basically didn't study and then i had the worst insomnia moment to date so i didn't sleep AT ALL, was so frustrated about it that i ended up having a breakdown over you for some reason. i got some coffee and somehow didn't fall asleep and did okay on the test maybe. then passed on an offer to go to the mall heh. i randomly decided to look at a random slideshow and saw your name and then your last name twice and you could say ach ach tis the signs but what about this just being pattern recognition we developed as advanced monkes and also your last name is common as shit. im pretty sure some guy on league actually tried to bully me for having a high honor level until i realized honor level likely represents not being toxic i actually laughed.. fnaf two movie less than a month away sigh. i can get 400 robux or league points but bc im goated im donating allat

bonded over some random person because of you. his boyfriend wasn't doing well and said he was going to the hospital and disappeared. i said i went through the same thing. i also thought you might be dead but then you came back. but that's when everything went downhill, you were barely the same person anymore. i just didn't have the heart to tell him that part. i guess i should be happy about the mere fact that you're alive, which is something he can't even say for now. considering pulling another allnighter but idk if my health is good enough for it i might be the one going to the hospital next i'm already doing so bad aw shucks

im not even proofreading anything anymore idek what i said in any of my posts yall getting unfiltered schizophrenia . i think im getting better though my search for the truth has been successfully unfruitful thats a good sign maybe im a genuous i just need to wait i need to wait i need to wait

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  1. AnonymousNovember 13, 2025 at 10:23 AM

    Mama Mia Robin, I’m sorry. I saw that rework on harbor and it was so silly. I don’t think tarot cards are good chat🥀 funny silly dappling into it maybe but I wouldn’t depend on it.
    Apart from me really wanting to be with you, I really tried to listen to signs from the “universe” or something when we were together. At times I would feel really conflicted. I never did pray if this was the right thing to do. I just wanted to keep feeding my confirmation bias with the signs I was getting from God knows where. Maybe I’m just stupid for following signs like that, maybe I put too much importance on it like you say. I just think it’s weird that so much has been really big coincidences. I remember telling myself if you did one thing that was probably never going to happen because you’ve never done that before- then I was going to tell you I liked you. The rest is history lol . And it was for a split second that you did this. The chances of doing it were so low- sigh. I don’t know what that was and I probably will never understand, I guess that’s okay. I somewhat made peace with it.
    Needy streamer overload nice.
    Shoot I keep forgetting to check epic games Brah. I’m playing touhou I’m locked in on peak it’s okay. Oh, I heard miku is coming to Fornite again for winterfest! I hope you did well on your test! Another origami for you 🥕 carrot origami
    Bro back on leauge sigh I tried my best ! Fnaf movie nice, donation nice. Please take care of yourself. You need to be alive to be able to play Alice peak
    I think I sent it to you 🥀 I’ll probably be getting it when it comes out and if bro still wants me in your steam family you can play it. I feel like I’m invading though and I also feel bad about your baller hoodie and headphones. I’ll take care of them until we see each other one day and then I’ll give them back to you! It’s nothing other than I just feel bad that you could be enjoying baller fan hoodie and peak music.
    Also, good morning/ afternoon yay!

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