Life a gamble and allat

Never mentioned it, but I'm still trying to cook in Prospecting. I have like 20b moneys right now. Just bought a highest level set, but it's not even helping me; this game became a grindfest lol. I feel like I'm back to clinging to my ritualistic routines so I wouldn't lose my mind.


Speedran through the second ending for CT. It's so bleak lol. I think I spent like... 7 ish hours on it in total? A lot of the time was spent pondering though, so I can't even know how long I was really playing. Angel is literally you, that's all I was thinking about. She even speaks like you. The same way as the entirety of the Deltarune game is Literally Me, I see Clinical Trial as being Literally You. It was nice, but also made me really sad at times.


You are not useless!!! You should allow yourself time to heal, but it's also pretty admirable that you are still doing stuff. Fresh opportunities sound pretty nice regardless, don't they?

There's no way letting go would be easier for me, unless you mean just staying as distant friends and checking up on each other sometimes - I'd have to accept that. I am no less selfish than you; I just want to talk to you again. If you only want to leave me for my sake, then please please don't. If you need that for your sake, then please do. If being close to me harms you in any way or means you're not taking care of yourself, I obviously don't want that.

I don't know what to say about our friendship ending. Honestly, I feel like an amnesiac in general; time passing by like three times slower than it usually would is not helping. Obviously, I'm happy you let me back into your life, though.

Would you want me to stop liking you or caring about you? Do you want me not to talk to you? Sounds like you're getting ready to move on. Maybe that's good. It still made me pretty happy you'd want to be with me... Ish? Everything seems to contradict each other lol.

Your depression posting seems too holly jolly; I don't know if you're just doing well or are going insane. W Sudoku, I wish I could've given you my Sudoku book, like I had planned to.

Many changes seem to be happening in your life. Are you scared of them, are you scared of accepting them? I really wish I could be there with you to help you through it, but I'm happy the distance between us can help you focus on yourself. You're doing well. 

PLEASE USE MY SHIT BRO I actually forgot about it. Stay warm stay safe drink some tea!! I'm gonna go beg my homies to drive me to class tmr. Sigh sigh

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