Holy moly..

Good job on everything today! I should be more productive as well.

I haven't been talking to anyone, let alone playing with them. I might play Valorant with Finn someday. There were still so many games we had to play together, aw... 

Uhh I'm not really great with medical terminology... Bro really hit me with the Lee infodump. Wonderful heh

I know many bad things happened between us, but I was very happy overall. I would not take the time back. The only thing I really regret is hurting you. ...And, of course, not doing everything I've planned sooner, when I still had a chance. But everything that happened was still very beautiful to me.

I'll be okay with whatever you want. Just give me some sign and I'll follow it. I trust you to take care of yourself, so I will accept anything.

I will listen to the song when I feel a bit better. :)

I can't lie, apart from me obviously being sad for you hurting, your feelings do make me quite sad... But I'm happy for you. If you do figure things out, if you do make a decision, even if it's not the sweetest one for me, I will be happy for you. I also want the best for you, even if we don't stay together. I hear you, and I get you. 

Is that your final decision? Do you want me to stop being in love with you? I'm not pressuring you to make any decisions at all, but you sound certain. Do you yourself no longer love me as a partner?

Whatever happened with the plundered stop sign? :P

Leaving today off on a sadder note, I guess. I'll go study now; I'll probably just Uber to class. Take care of yourself and rest well :) Good luck with Sudoku! Bro so smart, that's wondersome


Uhh way later edit: I don't want to worry you, but dude, letting go of you is so hard. I'm very chalant about you 👅

I think it's wonderful that simply leaving me would fix everything else in your life. I definitely won't blame you for making such an easy choice. I'm happy there's an out for you. :)

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  1. AnonymousOctober 8, 2025 at 11:17 PM

    My entire comment disappeared I’m going to go insane

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    1. AnonymousOctober 8, 2025 at 11:30 PM

      Lot of yapping on how I’m crying and how even something not even remotely related to you that can distract me makes me extremely depressed right afterwards when I stop becoming distracted. Life is just a bunch of stupid stupid distractions. Very impulsive demon slayer watch movie- I just came back. Distraction and then massive crash right afterwards. I cried listening to a fool moon night because I remembered you so virility playing it on my pc. In my room. I was so happy. The only thing I worried about was making you laugh and be happy and to not act stupid around you. After crying and feeling that numbness, I just started to cry still. Tears came down and I didn’t know why I was still crying. It’s horrible. Im really depressed. You don’t know how much I wished for someone to come to my room at night and kill me on that spot. Wishful thinking for a car accident or to just open the car door and use my strength to get out. I feel like all of this is so stupid. I feel as my feelings should be invalid and that I should not be going this insane. I’m really hurting and I can’t even do anything about it. I really wish you could hug me. I’m going to sleep I’m so tired. I can’t even see what I’m writing. My vision is so blurry. I’m just really sad right now, I don’t even know if I should be telling you how sad I feel if it doesn’t change absolutely anything. But maybe you can see how much this is actually affecting me. I’ll be going to sleep just because I feel really sad. I hope all goes well tomorrow:) I really am wishing you the best. I’ll respond to the rest of everything in the morning. I m really really really sad. I wonder why I’m even sad. Things so fuzzy. Good night 🥀 Study well, sleep well, eat well, drink enough water. You’ll do well.

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    2. AnonymousOctober 8, 2025 at 11:31 PM

      Bed full of things I will sleep zig zag or crush everything. I wore your zero socks. Thank you again

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    3. AnonymousOctober 9, 2025 at 11:29 AM

      I hope your test went all well :] Pretend I gave you origami dog this time

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    4. AnonymousOctober 9, 2025 at 5:04 PM

      I feel really down today as well. I feel a lot of guilt and shame and I feel like I need to not feel like this. I’ll probably sleep early today. I hope you had a good day ! :)

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