Haii we back

Gang, do NOT fall victim to Chinese scam apps. My Chinese game had its BGM turned down in-game, AND my tablet's sound was completely off, and that thing STILL played the music. That should NOT be allowed. Ban all Chinese games from app stores. America flag emoji

Prospecting is SO cheeks. Remember the dragon skull I edited for K's birthday? It used to be the rarest object in the game. Now there have been so many updates since then that I can't catch up. It's literally impossible. I'm grinding almost as much as I used to back when I first started playing, AND I'm actually reading up on the stats and probabilities, and it STILL isn't enough. 

I'm proud of you :) Keep going

So much content to consume ahh... Alice... City girl... Squid game... It's over

In terms of math class, funnily enough, someone removed an entire row from the classroom, and the only free seats are around Agnes lol. I WILL spread the Uma cheer soon. Otherwise, I have only ever talked to two other guys that I was in the study group with. They seem somewhat friendly, but it always feels like there's a wall between me and everyone else. I'm not as scared of the class itself; the pacing actually feels alright, but I have absolutely no willpower to work, but I feel like I could still catch up if I tried.

Peak guitar playing. I've actually been really anxious, too. I got woken up at around 11 after like 3 hours of sleep by this booming voice that seemed to come from everywhere within my room, talking about Culver's ice cream? I was so dazed and delusional, and then I felt this very heavy dread about how our situation doesn't feel right. The rest of the time I tried to stay in bed (until maybe 3.30), my sleep was so bad, I had many dreams. One of them was funny - I was eating with many people, including that Gianmarco Soresi dude, but my chair was close to him, and when I scooched away and asked him if I was invading his personal space, he said yes, but in this funny comedian way, I guess. The last dream was so stressful that I started shaking violently within the dream, to the point where my mom there asked me if I was fine. Other dreams I don't even remember.

What the helly? You've known about people linking up within my own friend group and never told me? Last one to know as always sighhh

I still have the bracelet! It's on my table right in front of me. I don't know if I should try to fix it, or if it would make it worse. Also, I don't remember if I told you, but my friend said it looked really nice on me :)

You don't make me feel bad. It's the lack of you that makes me feel bad. I'd really love to stay even as close friends. There's still so much I had to show you; it would be horrible for it to end this way.

You never told me my face turned red with the bottle ToT That's so unsigma of me. Truth be told, even basic things like me or others EATING remind me of you. I always freeze up when that happens. But, being even more honest, I still really like being caught off guard like this... 👅

I don't even remember Mentee's birthday... You seem to remember so many distant things, that's really awesome :) 

My family is. More or less uh. My brother is crashing out over his ex, but seems to be slowly accepting it, I guess... My mom is working a lot. I don't want to burden her with my stuff. For the time being, I am kinda isolating myself, but it's not in an emo way, I think. I do understand you feeling alone - I feel the exact same way. But just as I believe you are not alone, I must assume I am not alone either. Many people have texted me, but I didn't respond... K actually texted me, and I saw I already had a missed message from him - I thought bro abandoned me, but he was just giving me space because of everything I was dealing with.

Speaking of Meisho Doto. Have I told you about the Uma bust size ranking video............ I actually loled remembering that

Even after feeling so unspeakably anxious these last few days to the point of ignoring everything, I realized just hearing from you still has the power to calm me down. Sigh ! There are a lot of things I'm feeling and a lot I want to say to you, but I think space and time are what you need most now. I told you I would support you through anything, and I still mean it. No matter from what perspective you look at all this, you have been through a lot, and it is natural that you would need time to heal and gather your thoughts. I am just insanely happy you don't want me to die lol.

I haven't eaten today, basically at all. I'll try to eat some more before I go to sleep. I've actually been so so scared to go to sleep, and then so so scared to wake up. I don't even know if I'll get to apply to my universities. I'm disappointed in myself sigh sigh. I do need time for everything, though. You changed my life so much, and now I need to change it back again somehow.

Four thousand tuna cans oh it's over

My calf hurts 💀

Take care! Iron 3 today frfr

Update: Iron 1. Very much Iron 1. Got some alcohol brah. Anything to try to feel better 🥀 If fr though, I do feel better. I think it is just delusion at this point, but I will take any small chance, any probability of things ending up well. Maybe I will play Ena today.

If you remember, my mom would have been very hyped about you living with us. She just suggested that we should live our lives like you were still with us :D Actually a pretty wholesome idea