All's well...

The fear I felt when I thought it was her was almost blinding, so unbearable. And the relief and mellow hope when I found out it wasn't was so comforting... I am not yet strong enough to face it all. But I can keep on hoping. I will not stop hoping.


I slept for almost the entire day. Told a couple of people some stuff I shouldn't have, but I hope I will be forgiven because I really am struggling so much. But in a weird turn of events, just knowing there's a chance, knowing it's not yet over for sure, feels so uplifting. So I will keep on hoping.

Hope my telepathic abilities are working! I tried to do well on my test but probably failed as badly as always. Almost won a comp match but saw The Horror right as I went into overtime. Got team MVP! I'll try not to be so scared. Still so much waiting ahead. Good night! ⸜( *ˊᵕˋ* )⸝

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