actual suicide moment

i don't understand why i met you if i can't even be a part of your world

you said you didn't want to change but my angel is already gone

my labubu eyes red just like yours wow

got 10/10 on last math test okay

genuinely about to start passionately praying for death

btw please try to see if you can talk to your other friends. you don't have to talk to me but you need to have contacts. please take care 🥀

on more positive news maybe i thought about you napping in your house very peacefully and bro my heart warmed up so unspeakably much


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  1. AnonymousOctober 21, 2025 at 11:36 AM

    I am struggling with the same thing. Also Wi-Fi has been taken out and everything. I am actually a prisoner. Have thought of walking to library but my body is so exhausted i dont know if ill make it. I will try tomorrow

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  2. AnonymousOctober 21, 2025 at 1:02 PM

    :) I will see if I can talk to my friends soon. I really do miss everyone !
    I just got out of therapy session (it’s online) it helped me a bunch to feel somewhat better. I still think you should try to do the same- bro talk with my therapist so she can see the full picture lol
    She’s been really reassuring through it all like my sadness and anger and isolation
    Also :)
    I sleep from like 1am to 1pm everyday dude ToT
    I also still think about you a lot. I still think about you in the morning and right before going to sleep. Just because I can’t communicate back does not mean I do not think about you and pray for you !

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  3. AnonymousOctober 21, 2025 at 1:03 PM

    Also, im glad about your math test :D vro so ver y smart

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  4. AnonymousOctober 21, 2025 at 1:11 PM

    I am taking screenshots of your post and am going to write about it. When I get the chance to have Wi-Fi I will send you a message because I think what you said on your previous post is very serious !
    Trust me when I tell you I feel the exact same way.
    I do love you still. I still want to do all these things with you- but I also think that I love you so very much that I do want the best for you. All i want for you is the best- meaning that I would want to love you the way God intends for me to love you. I pray every day for you and that my intentions with you are the way that it should be- not even in in a biased way- its more of - if im meant to be with you please let me see that and if im just here to have learned something then to please let me live by it and for it to help you as well.

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  5. AnonymousOctober 21, 2025 at 1:12 PM

    I think God would know better than anyone else- although, I am very mad with him. Bro my prayers are filled with curse words dawg im cooked

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  6. AnonymousOctober 21, 2025 at 1:17 PM

    Also, I told my therapist that my favorite part about you are your eyes and something else chat !
    I said there are very blue and just the shape of them are very nice

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  7. AnonymousOctober 21, 2025 at 10:29 PM

    I hope you have a good night, Robin :]
    Saw two people with your name today!

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    1. AnonymousOctober 21, 2025 at 10:30 PM

      *nametags

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    2. AnonymousOctober 21, 2025 at 10:32 PM

      HOLLY MOLY CITY GIRL !?!?!??!?!!? YES YES

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    3. AnonymousOctober 21, 2025 at 11:09 PM

      Album was a bit mid but thats okay ! I liked MMO in 2004, kangaroo plushie, I think it’s cute when you anything, and only you
      Also, i don’t know how i have Wi-Fi still
      Am currently reading and pondering about things
      Will reply to your message when I can :]
      Take care, everything will be okay :]

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    4. AnonymousOctober 21, 2025 at 11:19 PM

      Sorry for so many texts, but if you ever feel bad you should try to read psalms 88
      It really really really helped me get through the psych ward because it’s the only psalms in the entire book of psalms that really reflected how i felt.
      I promise i’m not being doomer right now but it really is the only psalms that the poet says they’ve prayed constantly but had experienced no deliverance- but even with that- faith is shown because the poet still cries out to God.
      I wrote about this more in my letters to you actually !
      This being in the Bible made me feel seen. Hopefully it helps you as well.

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    5. AnonymousOctober 21, 2025 at 11:40 PM

      https://youtu.be/jiawzYgfkuI

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